Angry

Why does it seem that when you reach out to say hello to someone, they initially are happy to hear from you? Yet, it quickly dies, like it never started. I get it. I really do. Maybe it's just because I'm angry at myself, allowing a moment of weakness to shine a false since of giddy. There's no way around it. It will always be there even if all were to be deleted. Some memories never fade, nor do the feelings associated. Despite the change in routes, you can't run from it. Even if I lived in another country for 20yrs, it wouldn't change. It's been years already, it hasn't changed. It never will, but go ahead and live in denial. Safer for you anyway.