Two lives move on...

I've finally made it. I think the worst is behind me. The last 8 wks have been BRUTAL. I didn't think it could last so long or be so rough. On top of that I had the flu last week to the point of almost being hospitalized for dehydration. I couldn't take care of Jayden and didn't see him for 3 days. It was awful all around. The next weekend we bought our new bed and it is the highlight of my day crawling into bed at night in a brand new bed, new sheets, new everything where you can just melt and literally let out a "ahhhhh" never felt so good. Now I feel like my bed is so high. I slide off my bed vs stand up from an L shape position sitting on my bed previously. LOL. This weekend is a 3 day weekend and I am really looking forward to it!! Finally feeling better and ready to have some fun!! Brother is house sitting for 2 weeks so we have the house truly to ourselves =)

Phase 2 here we go!

I may be bad but I'm perfectly good at it

By Rihanna

Feels so good being bad
There’s no way I’m turning back
Now the pain is my pleasure
Cause nothing could measure

Love is great, love is fine
Out the box, out of line
The affliction of the feeling
Leaves me wanting more

[Chorus x2:]
Cause I may be bad
But I’m perfectly good at it
Sex in the air
I don’t care
I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me

Na na na na
Come on
Come on
Come on
I like it
Like it
Come on
Come on
Come on
I like it
Like it
Come on
Come on
Come on
I like it
Like it
Come on
Come on
Come on
I like it
Like it

Love is great, love is fine
Out the box, out of line
The affliction of the feeling
Leaves me wanting more

[Chorus:]
Cause I may be bad
But I’m perfectly good at it
Sex in the air
I don’t care
I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me

Na na na na
Come on

Addiction

Addicted to you by Saving Abel

I'm so addicted to
All the things you do
When your going down on me
In between the sheets
All the sounds you make
With every breath you take
Its unlike anything
when you're loving me

oh girl lets take it slow
so as for you well you know where to go
i want to take my love and hate you till the end

its not like you to turn away
from all the bullshit i cant take
it's not like me to walk away

i'm so addicted to all the things
you do when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make with every breathe you take
its unlike anything
when you're loving me

yeahh

i know when it's getting rough
all the times we spend
when we try to make
this love something better than
just making love again
its not like you to turn away
all the bullshit i cant take
just when i think i can walk away,

i'm so addicted to all the things
you do when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make
with every breathe you take
its unlike anything

i'm so addicted to the things you do
when your going down on me
all the sounds you make with every breath you take
its unlike anything when you're loving me
when you're loving me

i cannot make it through
all the things you do
theres just got to be more to you and me

i'm so addicted to all the things you do
when your going down on me
in between the sheets
all the sounds you make with every breath you take
its unlike anything
its unlike anything

i'm so addicted to
all the things you do
when your going down on me

all the sounds you make with every breath
you take its unlike anything
i'm so addicted to you
addicted to you

Angry

Why does it seem that when you reach out to say hello to someone, they initially are happy to hear from you? Yet, it quickly dies, like it never started. I get it. I really do. Maybe it's just because I'm angry at myself, allowing a moment of weakness to shine a false since of giddy. There's no way around it. It will always be there even if all were to be deleted. Some memories never fade, nor do the feelings associated. Despite the change in routes, you can't run from it. Even if I lived in another country for 20yrs, it wouldn't change. It's been years already, it hasn't changed. It never will, but go ahead and live in denial. Safer for you anyway.